There needs to be a change...

I have been evaluating myself lately, and I am not really pleased with the results. No, I am not talking about the flabby belly hanging before me, although, I do need to start working on losing that! I am talking about my character and about the Lord's will for my life. I am not saying that I am some terrible person or anything, I am just reflecting on things God has taught me, and thinking that I have seriously been slacking off in doing what is good and right. I have this fear of being vulnerable to other people, so I have no idea why I am blogging this, but it just seemed like something I needed to say. I'm tired of my bad temper, my impatience, and my lack of trust in what God is doing in my life right now... just to name a few things. I have noticed that I have been very self-centered lately, and I am tired of it! I want to be more focused on the things of God as well as on other people. I want my love for others to be something that describes who I am. I have a lot of questions for God and honestly a little bit of frustration and bitterness that needs to be worked out. That's a whole other story that I am not going to get into though. Anyways, I was reading a very old blog by this woman who was dealing with some of the same things I am. In it she quoted Psalm 37. A lot of the things she was saying are my heart right now and I was intrigued by the psalm. I decided that in my journey to start changing and become more of the person I want to be, one of the things I am going to study is Psalm 37. It's only a start, but I think there are many wonderful things to gain from knowing it better. I love that God's Word is full of things to change us and impact our lives. There is so much He can teach me and I pray that He will do this now.

Psalm 37

Psa 37:1	Do not fret because of evildoers, Be not envious toward wrongdoers.
Psa 37:2	For they will wither quickly like the grass And fade like the green herb.
Psa 37:3	Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
Psa 37:4	Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Psa 37:5	Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
Psa 37:6	He will bring forth your righteousness as the light And your judgment as the noonday.
Psa 37:7	Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.
Psa 37:8	Cease from anger and forsake wrath; Do not fret; {it leads} only to evildoing.
Psa 37:9	For evildoers will be cut off, But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.
Psa 37:10	Yet a little while and the wicked man will be no more; And you will look carefully for his place and he will not be {there.}
Psa 37:11	But the humble will inherit the land And will delight themselves in abundant prosperity.
Psa 37:12	The wicked plots against the righteous And gnashes at him with his teeth.
Psa 37:13	The Lord laughs at him, For He sees his day is coming.
Psa 37:14	The wicked have drawn the sword and bent their bow To cast down the afflicted and the needy, To slay those who are upright in conduct.
Psa 37:15	Their sword will enter their own heart, And their bows will be broken.
Psa 37:16	Better is the little of the righteous Than the abundance of many wicked.
Psa 37:17	For the arms of the wicked will be broken, But the LORD sustains the righteous.
Psa 37:18	The LORD knows the days of the blameless, And their inheritance will be forever.
Psa 37:19	They will not be ashamed in the time of evil, And in the days of famine they will have abundance.
Psa 37:20	But the wicked will perish; And the enemies of the LORD will be like the glory of the pastures, They vanish--like smoke they vanish away.
Psa 37:21	The wicked borrows and does not pay back, But the righteous is gracious and gives.
Psa 37:22	For those blessed by Him will inherit the land, But those cursed by Him will be cut off.
Psa 37:23	The steps of a man are established by the LORD, And He delights in his way.
Psa 37:24	When he falls, he will not be hurled headlong, Because the LORD is the One who holds his hand.
Psa 37:25	I have been young and now I am old, Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken Or his descendants begging bread.
Psa 37:26	All day long he is gracious and lends, And his descendants are a blessing.
Psa 37:27	Depart from evil and do good, So you will abide forever.
Psa 37:28	For the LORD loves justice And does not forsake His godly ones; They are preserved forever, But the descendants of the wicked will be cut off.
Psa 37:29	The righteous will inherit the land And dwell in it forever.
Psa 37:30	The mouth of the righteous utters wisdom, And his tongue speaks justice.
Psa 37:31	The law of his God is in his heart; His steps do not slip.
Psa 37:32	The wicked spies upon the righteous And seeks to kill him.
Psa 37:33	The LORD will not leave him in his hand Or let him be condemned when he is judged.
Psa 37:34	Wait for the LORD and keep His way, And He will exalt you to inherit the land; When the wicked are cut off, you will see it.
Psa 37:35	I have seen a wicked, violent man Spreading himself like a luxuriant tree in its native soil.
Psa 37:36	Then he passed away, and lo, he was no more; I sought for him, but he could not be found.
Psa 37:37	Mark the blameless man, and behold the upright; For the man of peace will have a posterity.
Psa 37:38	But transgressors will be altogether destroyed; The posterity of the wicked will be cut off.
Psa 37:39	But the salvation of the righteous is from the LORD; He is their strength in time of trouble.
Psa 37:40	The LORD helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, Because they take refuge in Him.